Loss
I just wanted to continue and say this gets me teary eyed to type out.
Going off my first post, its taken me a few weeks to come back and describe what happened.
It was April 28th, 2016 at 10:30 in the morning. I was out to brunch with a close friend. I had just dropped Gianna off at daycare. Before our food was even to the table I had checked my phone and saw there was a voicemail. It was my daughters grandmother (her fathers mother). My heart sunk. We hadnt spoken in a while So at that point I already had a lot of feelings. I listened to the voicemail, Her telling me to call her back. I did within 5 seconds. Thats when she told me hes gone. Hes dead. Nothing else at that point because we didnt know. I left lunch. I picked up, barely able to drive because I could barely stop crying. I started on my way driving to North jersey. I called my grandma, my friends. I was scared. It did not feel real at all. Prior to that day I hadnt seen his family in a while. We met at his grandmothers house. His sister. His parents. We were all crying. I could not believe this was happening. At the time it felt like my world had crashed down and I still didnt even know what was going on.
It was later discovered that he overdosed. Its a huge epidemic here in New Jersey, and since losing her father ive watched TONS of friends lose close loved ones. Its scary.
This is to be continued. Flashing back to a time of my life I try to block out is emotional, and Im sure it will always be. But im just not ready to share it all just yet.
Going off my first post, its taken me a few weeks to come back and describe what happened.
It was April 28th, 2016 at 10:30 in the morning. I was out to brunch with a close friend. I had just dropped Gianna off at daycare. Before our food was even to the table I had checked my phone and saw there was a voicemail. It was my daughters grandmother (her fathers mother). My heart sunk. We hadnt spoken in a while So at that point I already had a lot of feelings. I listened to the voicemail, Her telling me to call her back. I did within 5 seconds. Thats when she told me hes gone. Hes dead. Nothing else at that point because we didnt know. I left lunch. I picked up, barely able to drive because I could barely stop crying. I started on my way driving to North jersey. I called my grandma, my friends. I was scared. It did not feel real at all. Prior to that day I hadnt seen his family in a while. We met at his grandmothers house. His sister. His parents. We were all crying. I could not believe this was happening. At the time it felt like my world had crashed down and I still didnt even know what was going on.
It was later discovered that he overdosed. Its a huge epidemic here in New Jersey, and since losing her father ive watched TONS of friends lose close loved ones. Its scary.
This is to be continued. Flashing back to a time of my life I try to block out is emotional, and Im sure it will always be. But im just not ready to share it all just yet.
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